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My name is Nicki. I am a blogger and a Freelance Writer. I love music, anything artistic from decorating our home to painting and fashion. I also love cooking (and eating) food. I am married and together  we have a daughter. Oh, and I also have depression and anxiety.

Just like all of the other traits that make me who I am such as being left handed and having thick hair, part of my makeup is having depression and anxiety and do you know what? I am OK with that. Sure I wish that wasn’t the case and sure I still get very low days and question my whole existence and why this happens to me but at least I have accepted it. After nearly thirty years of trying to ignore it, trying to hide it and feeling very ashamed of it I can FINALLY be open about it.

I’m not saying I am someone who talks about it when I introduce myself at parties or am asked about myself but then I hate it when people go on about any ailments all the time. However whenever it is necessary or relevant I am open about it. Only a couple of years ago I would never EVER have admitted it and because of that it kind of ruled my life. A bit like a secret abuser having control over me and controlling how I felt and what I said or did, even what I wore.

It has taken me a few years and a hell of a lot of hard work but finally I can live with my depression and anxiety and can manage it about 90% of the time. Now I am in control not my illness. I am not perfect and it hasn’t just gone away (It will never go away) so yes, some days it wins me over but the difference now is that I know what is going on. I admit how I am feeling and accept it. Sometimes no matter what you do to make yourself feel better you just can’t and that is OK.

So because of what I have been through and my progress I wanted to start this blog which is both a personal account of my battles with depression and anxiety and a catalogue of my personal tips, advice and experience which will hopefully help you feel better and make some adjustments to your life and thought process to hopefully live a happier and healthier life.

Above anything else, my biggest tip before you can go any further is to learn to love yourself for who you are. Take all of those quirks you hate about yourself and start to love them. They are what make you who you are and no one else can be you. You are one of a kind. Start appreciating that. Look in the mirror and tell yourself that you are just as good as everybody else and just as capable as anyone else. Seriously, do it. At first it will feel weird but the body hears everything the mind tells it so over time you will start to believe what you are telling yourself and believe in yourself again.

I hope this blog helps you. You can find my first ever post on this blog here:

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